A Growing Up Mother

I have big ideas.  Lately I am realizing what my big ideas are doing to my little family.  I want to be a stay at home mom...not a distracted at home mom.  A couple days ago I decided to let go of one of my biggest ideas: Happy Tail Acres  I made a list of pros and cons and am now finding homes for each and every "idea."   It's hard to grow up sometimes.  I need more time for the precious little feet pitter pattering around our home.  I am new to this motherhood life but not new enough to realize it's going to take sacrifice and intense dedication to be good at what I do.  I love them too much to be distracted.  Lord, please help me to take what you have blessed me with seriously.  I pray that the Lord shows me that it is okay to let my big ideas rest simply in my family for the time being. 

this is not about me. it's about simplicity. i see people running and they don't have time for what is the most important.  family. it's about cultivating.  cultivating what hasn't been used in ages...digging down deep and reaching for the beauty that sustains.  this isn't about being scared. He's got His hand in it all.  this is about birth, growing, learning, working, playing....listening and not talking.